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Secluded from Life

You can listen to a poem reading here or read it for yourself below.

https://rightfullives.net/VideoPages/Secluded-from-life.html

I can see it – I can see the kind of life I would like to live,
But there’s so much stopping me, that I cannot forgive.
I’m trapped in this room-repeatedly restrained,
Everything seems lost-nothing gained.

I have autism but they tell me it’s BPD,
They just want to make money out of Me.

They restrain Me, inject Me, bully me too, So I scratched, picked and swallowed just to get through.
They laugh and call me fat-I started to carve an F into my stomach after that.

They don’t listen to My screams
“Let Me Out, LET ME OUT”
Emergency Assistance they shout,
6 big men come to take Me out.

A sharp scratch and I’m off to sleep,
When I wake up no one hears me weep.
I want my Mum, I want to go home,
Yet I’m laying here all on my own.

Everything is dark,
There is very little light.
And I just want to give up my fight.

Another day…

Another day of hell, feeling empty, numb and fat,
The people that keep Me here, make sure of that.

I have zero energy to scream and shout,
No way to let My feelings out.

Merely existing, trapped, all alone,
No hand to hold, or a place to call home.

Everything hurts but there’s no point, in crying,
The Girl with no face, is slowly dying.

Another day without joy, just pain inside,
Ends with familiar thoughts, of reaching the other side.

Hurtful words ruin lives

So many hurtful words incessantly revolving in my mind,
Engraved on my skin, the damage left behind…

From so many years of emotional abuse,
My confidence in shreds -I am of no use.

The cuts and scratches on my body, are no mistake.
I am the girl with no face,
Who can no longer fake.

No one sees…No one hears,
Or cares about the scars,
I have etched over the years.

I can no longer, keep it together,
I have been swimming in this ocean with monsters, forever.
I am so tired, I am drowning and struggling to breathe,
This girl with no face
Just wants let me leave.

I am a prisoner

I am a prisoner left to suffer, immense pain.
Trapped in Seclusion, slowly going insane.

Made to feel ashamed of who i am,
No here gives a damn.

So many chaotic thoughts spinning around in my head,
Always anxious-on the edge,
This is no life, I would rather be dead.
Not waking up every day filled with dread!

How much more do I have to take?
How much longer until I get a break?

I am a shadow of a girl, invisible to most- completely broken,
All ALONE…
The girl with no face, that will NEVER go home.